ok 1, lay off the drugs...2, lay off the religion, you think too much to compete in that war, 3, i believe that every time you try to define yourself you will get a temporary answer, dont base your life on your definitions, dont run your life on someones religion, love is unexplainable like graffiti on a train, 100% true unconditional love in impossible, only one with no mind at all can find it and be in it. never question religion, youll get about as far as questioning how many star trak episodes there are....we all look for the answers to life, believe me youre not the first to take a wild thoughtful guess, but i like your deep thoughts, write a book about it, not to publish or anything, but read it again in 5 years and see what you think