I think I'm going through some pre-30 crisis where I look back on the last 10 years with disappointment at how little I did with the opportunities I had and dread at where my life is headed. Trying to dig my heels into the sand to keep it from happening but feel like it is no use.
I think that's normal and a lot of people who run into their 30s have that.
I think I have this as well when I look back.
I actually don't have anything to show for at the moment except the person being that I am.
no house, no job etc. That's why I am planning to go to SE Asia for about ten months after the summer (could be more or less I don't have a clue yet. As long as I am there). Just traveling around be some kind of a bum there and think about what I really want in life. What kind of job etc.
I used to work IT (pretty good aswell) but no personal satisfaction. Now I know that for my job I need some personal satisfaction (this does not include a big carrier with some company working 9 to 5 in a office) or I will feel like this the rest of my life I am afraid...
Someone told me once 'if you look back, you turn your back on the future' good saying though.