I better start cooking more when I move. I've always been picky about food believe it or not. I need to be in control of it start to finish if I'll ever develop a truly healthy relationship with food. I used to start arguments all the time about my grandma's cooking growing up because she used to do some crazy stuff to help us survive. Like we'd eat some kind of vegetable soup or something made with leftover vegetables. Then we'd have spaghetti. Then she'd make like a spaghetti vegetable soup caserole and id flip out like a piece of shit and refuse to eat it. It stuck with me it's why when I'm anxious ill go eat out every meal it's like a "everything is ok" mental and financial security thing. It's how i got probably up to 280ish most likely just over 300 a few times (when you're that big you don't weigh yourself because you don't care / don't want to be confronted with having to be uncomfortable)
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quit talking to yourself
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