yeah i hear you. i still deal with people ive known forever who will turn on me and dissapear over 75 bucks. when the drug came kicks in you gotta seperate yaself from fam...no family love...business an no friendship..shits sad..ill never have the heart to do it with no concious like the drug lords.. i cnt even talk to my own dad after ive seen things hes done. ii try, but theres still that seperation. its better we not talk until he either dies or gets his shit together. but in a weird twist of events its almost liek i work to smoke weed and drink on vacation...whats the difference bsides the high..he does it in his bathroom at home and i do it in my own way at holiday inn, 700 miles from my house..