Endless Cycles...

[L Mac-a-docious]

Yall ever find yourself in the same bullshit situations telling yourself you wouldnever be there again...The easiest example is getting too drunk and earlin' and saying you'll never drink again...but I got another one that has stuck with me.
A coupla weeks ago I went to 850 Bryant for a night for a warrant out of SJ. I don't give a fuck about that, but I was in the tank with a cat I had seen the last time I was there for a week. He was a cat from the Mission who was an alki...he could never stop talking, one of those fools who needs to tell his story to everyone who will listen. Anyway he had deteriorated since the last time I had seen him when I told myself I would never be back in that place...And that shit scared the shit out of me. I looked at him each time like, "Fuck, that dude is way fucked up than me." But now I wonder if I'm just the young version of that cat. I sometimes feel like I'm stuck on a path that I'm never gonna shake. And every day I wake up saying I aint gonna do the shit I do anymore, and I'm gonna clean, and square up. Yall ever go through this ish?

"Every other day I tell my sohops I quit...but you know that's drama, niggas be barking they ass off." -E40

 

[mustynutz]

we all do bro, you just gotta find a way to break the cycle....and there is a way...you just have to takes the steps and do what ya gotta do

 

[mR.SiPpYGeTiPpY]

nowadays i just boy it when I get asked to move on somewhere for the night... have a couple a drinks and shake.. usually means i go out less, and have even less sex.. . damn i thought i'd NEVER say this but i need a relationship. ... So, my homies ex who's cool as fuck was hooking me up with some of her girfriends.. This one chick i was feelin right, but she was a fucking party animal, so there I was, back in it again! .. now i'm just ridin the repurcussive wave of these incidents that got me deteriating.. I'm sure I'll be back at it in a week or so..

theres an endless cycle.. Breaking this shit is ill..

funnily enough, I met a guy from the mission in my city the other night.. I had a feelin he might have been an alki, possibly homeless too..

 

[BzNutz]

all we do to pass time in Washington is drink, same ol party's same ol bullshit, and its gettin old, i feel ya man, i dont wanna end up like ol dude

 

[L Mac-a-docious]

Right on yall for the responses...
I feel ya Musty, I just needed to vent a little last night...just felt like shit was getting played out for me...I do need to change some shit up though, like join a gym or something.

 

[The Duke of Earl]

reminds me in the movie anchor man "we've been coming to the same party for years, and in no way is that depressing"

for me to stop drinking , i have to bassically have no social life what so ever , but i've calmed down i dont drink on week days no more and only drink on the weekends but it might be fri,sat,sun or it's just friday.