Shit mayne its hard, Atleast your going to school. When my passed when I was in High School, I didnt even go for 2 months. It was too hard,but I did promise my mom that I would graduate. so thats what boosted my confidence into going back to thug it out. But keep your head up pimpin,I've felt what your going through..Its nothin nice.RIP to all our Mothers that passed.