I wrote this awhile bacc, but i made a few changes and i wanna see what y'all think about it. I wrote for my ex-boyfriend and sent it to him when he was locced up. He was pretty heated....
Fillin my mind with game and lies/
i closed my eyes and felt like i'd rather die than to ever have to say goodbye/
it took me awhile to realize/
i could no longer compromise/
told me you where a real man, but nigga, youre more pussy than in between my thighs/
i cant cry but i got these swollen tears in my eyes/
i'm feelin like Faith, you get no love, but you mustve been Biggie cuz you had me hypnotized.
Now there you sit, mind scrambled in all your bullshit/
all i can do is spit, hopin it hits you in the face and drips off yo bottom lip/
makin me wanna flip on some violent shit/
dig my fingernails in yo heart and licc the blood off my fingertips/
succin the red juice from my cuticles, enjoyin every sip.
Bitch, you less than dirt to me/
it would do me no greater pleasure than to see you bleed/
we used to talk about the baby we would conceive/
everyone warned me but i refused to heed/
now we will never be/
you gon' wake up one morning and see that its me you really need.
Maybe one day you'll come to the realization/
i was prepared to give you me without hesitation/
i gave you my heart now i'm filing my resignation/
for the 2 years we were together you gave me 24 months of agrivation/agitation...dont you understand hun?...i was in love to the point where i woulda gave you my left foot if you aint have one/
if youda asked it woulda been done/
cuz i still woulda had the right one/
get it? Hmm..obviously you didnt/
cuz anything triflin you coulda done to me you up and did it/
and i cant forget it.
Start livin wit yo mind and soul and not yo dicc and semon/
put ya dicc bacc in ya pants and quit pussy feindin/
most importantly put god on ya team and start truley believin/
in fact you got a lot of growin up to do/
i'm sorry if i interrupted you/
or abrupted you/
even though i'm younger i couldve instructed you/
constructed you...into a real man-grown and mature/
but all that fixer upper husband shit i couldnt endure/
i need somebody with a soul thats deep and a heart thats pure/
i'm sufferin from a broken heart, tryna find a cure.
This is a wound that i cant heal in a month and some days/
i loved you but now my heart is scarred and grazed.
I coulda been ya misses/
puttin down my dependance/
givin total interest/
took my love and singed it/
i'll no longer defend it/
no more hopes to mend it/
all i have left is my vengence/
and my own independance/
i'm not gonna cry over you, cant die over you/
when i get up and walk again i'm not gonna so much as sigh over you.
This glass heart is broken and shattered in a million peices/
so heres my thesis-i think less of you than i do my own fesis/
all this anger on my heart, i'm gonna release this/
i'ma stop searchin for love and try to figure out where peace is.
I used to think you were too smart, too intelligent a man to be classified as ignorant/
but you took the word discernment in my eyes and disfigured it/
showin me that you'll diss and never earn the female youre meant to be wit/
you locced my soul in your hands, i think its time i free it/
that silly ho you want me to be, i can never be it/
that life i saw for us in the future, i can no longer see it/
the ability of love when you was caught on ya riff/
but i dont want it bacc, you can keep it, accept it as a gift/
i'm gone now, your punishment is to wonder for the rest of yo life...."what if?"
Fillin my mind with game and lies/
i closed my eyes and felt like i'd rather die than to ever have to say goodbye/
it took me awhile to realize/
i could no longer compromise/
told me you where a real man, but nigga, youre more pussy than in between my thighs/
i cant cry but i got these swollen tears in my eyes/
i'm feelin like Faith, you get no love, but you mustve been Biggie cuz you had me hypnotized.
Now there you sit, mind scrambled in all your bullshit/
all i can do is spit, hopin it hits you in the face and drips off yo bottom lip/
makin me wanna flip on some violent shit/
dig my fingernails in yo heart and licc the blood off my fingertips/
succin the red juice from my cuticles, enjoyin every sip.
Bitch, you less than dirt to me/
it would do me no greater pleasure than to see you bleed/
we used to talk about the baby we would conceive/
everyone warned me but i refused to heed/
now we will never be/
you gon' wake up one morning and see that its me you really need.
Maybe one day you'll come to the realization/
i was prepared to give you me without hesitation/
i gave you my heart now i'm filing my resignation/
for the 2 years we were together you gave me 24 months of agrivation/agitation...dont you understand hun?...i was in love to the point where i woulda gave you my left foot if you aint have one/
if youda asked it woulda been done/
cuz i still woulda had the right one/
get it? Hmm..obviously you didnt/
cuz anything triflin you coulda done to me you up and did it/
and i cant forget it.
Start livin wit yo mind and soul and not yo dicc and semon/
put ya dicc bacc in ya pants and quit pussy feindin/
most importantly put god on ya team and start truley believin/
in fact you got a lot of growin up to do/
i'm sorry if i interrupted you/
or abrupted you/
even though i'm younger i couldve instructed you/
constructed you...into a real man-grown and mature/
but all that fixer upper husband shit i couldnt endure/
i need somebody with a soul thats deep and a heart thats pure/
i'm sufferin from a broken heart, tryna find a cure.
This is a wound that i cant heal in a month and some days/
i loved you but now my heart is scarred and grazed.
I coulda been ya misses/
puttin down my dependance/
givin total interest/
took my love and singed it/
i'll no longer defend it/
no more hopes to mend it/
all i have left is my vengence/
and my own independance/
i'm not gonna cry over you, cant die over you/
when i get up and walk again i'm not gonna so much as sigh over you.
This glass heart is broken and shattered in a million peices/
so heres my thesis-i think less of you than i do my own fesis/
all this anger on my heart, i'm gonna release this/
i'ma stop searchin for love and try to figure out where peace is.
I used to think you were too smart, too intelligent a man to be classified as ignorant/
but you took the word discernment in my eyes and disfigured it/
showin me that you'll diss and never earn the female youre meant to be wit/
you locced my soul in your hands, i think its time i free it/
that silly ho you want me to be, i can never be it/
that life i saw for us in the future, i can no longer see it/
the ability of love when you was caught on ya riff/
but i dont want it bacc, you can keep it, accept it as a gift/
i'm gone now, your punishment is to wonder for the rest of yo life...."what if?"