Gas One said:
i just need to manage my emotions better and work at not having a short fuse when shit dosent go my way
theres alot of aspects of managing my emotions i need to work at
im really quick to get pissed and i always feel bad afterwards because i say really messed up things at times and im sort of good at verbal abuse..but i cant take verbal abuse without advancing past it..like getting worse than where the bar was set..fighting or talking about someones dead auntie or something
shits like a switch in my head, i cant really stop it.....if a line gets crossed im flipping out
and i do it to loved ones, authority and random people
when i was a kid i thought shitting on people was a game..now im realizing its more of a problem
I used to have the same problem when i was a lil younger. get mad and say the most disrespectfull shit i could think of aslong as i knew it was gonna make him/her feel as fucked as possible.. and then feel hella bad afterwards.... and be like damn i didnt just say that shit...
I had to grow up and get out of that shit cuz it was making people percieve me as something i wasnt. it was hard tho cuz it was almost like an automatic thing could hardly control it.
I lost my pops a couple of years ago he was sick and i used to say some real disrespectfull shit to him when i got mad and never really got to chance to sit down with him and apologize and just tell him i loved and appreciated him.. i dont know if its that serious with you but if it is you need to think about that bra friends come and go loved ones are here forever yet still can be gone before you know it.