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Defy

Defy

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What are things you personally need to do to better yourself?



I was kinda inspired by the "what have you accomplished in the last 2 months" thread.....when I first seen it I thought "damn, I haven't done shit" but then I started writing and realize that I have.


I know I need to get my finances in order. I had a negative balance in my account for damn near 3 months straight, but in order to do that I gotta step my game up.

I gotta be less critical of myself and my musical skills, for example I'm spinning records for my friend as she performs and I keep telling her "I'm not a dj, I'll just press play for you and shit" and as we're rehearsing and I'm doing shit playing with the records she's like "that's perfect, that's exactly what I was talking about. Quit selling yourself short" Same goes for my beats, when I make shit I'm not satisfied like its hella missing shit, then I hear foos putting out shit that is even more simple. along those same lines, I gotta practice more too, to get better at djing and the guitar/bass as well as recording. I have the equiptment, but I get sidetracked and need to focus.

what I should do is stop smoking, stop drinking, and stop posting on siccness. but I don't think those will stop.
 
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I feel you man...
I can get focused but can't stay focused and thats what I need to work on, staying focused and not losing sight of my goals...no smokin/drinkin would deff help, but the will power aint that strong right now...

oh and people can learn from me how to sell yourself short, deff need to step out that shit...
 
Gas One

Gas One

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i just need to manage my emotions better and work at not having a short fuse when shit dosent go my way

theres alot of aspects of managing my emotions i need to work at

im really quick to get pissed and i always feel bad afterwards because i say really messed up things at times and im sort of good at verbal abuse..but i cant take verbal abuse without advancing past it..like getting worse than where the bar was set..fighting or talking about someones dead auntie or something

shits like a switch in my head, i cant really stop it.....if a line gets crossed im flipping out

and i do it to loved ones, authority and random people

when i was a kid i thought shitting on people was a game..now im realizing its more of a problem
 
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I need to record more music. I haven't been able to set aside time for a long minute to get in the booth. Im in a better state of mind when Im working on music. Honestly haven't recorded anything new since February.
 
Defy

Defy

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I've actually been getting better with my weed habit.....I actually made an 8th last over 2 weeks :eek: mainly cuz I had no cash and still had a bit of hash, but not waking up and rolling one was interesting....

and my potna is having a beerfest type thing in a month, so I can't stop drinking till after that....I actually have to drink more beer to get my tolerance up....we had a run thru that left me thruski....lets see, had about a 3 or 4 coronas, a 22oz beer bong, shotgunned 3 cans, and then there were the mugs. each mug holds 20-24oz depending on how full it was, and we played hella games, so I had at least 6 or 7 of those....and most of the time it was just drinking it straight, chugging....the suprising thing was there wasn't many white people involved....lol
 
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Theres a lot I need to do.... well I started a new job last week so thats a step cuz I was unemployed for about a month...... still drinking way too much, smoking too much cigs and weed, eatin unhealthy like fast food everyday...... spending too much money on all the things mentioned above........

also I need to start getting serious about recording my music.... its seriously my passion and my love but I just write and write and have no outlet to really record and get it out there...... writing is my therapy but I wanna spread my messages.......... I need to start exercising a lot more too
 
Defy

Defy

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@ gas: thats similar to my baby momma....she got a short fuse and will hella escalate situations for no reason, other than someone is mad at her. she's the only one that can push my buttons enough to have me screaming and wanting to break things....it feels like every conversation I have with her I need a blunt to calm down.

which is another thing I need to work on, having civil conversations with her for the sake of the child.
 
Gas One

Gas One

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Defy said:
@ gas: thats similar to my baby momma....she got a short fuse and will hella escalate situations for no reason, other than someone is mad at her. she's the only one that can push my buttons enough to have me screaming and wanting to break things....it feels like every conversation I have with her I need a blunt to calm down.
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yeah, let my ex tell it and thats why we broke up, because i said hateful shit.

kinda sucks because ive tried my best to get her back and she just is sorta over it due to shit ive said...so ive done alot of trying to own up to the fact that im making alot of good situations turn worse by not choosing my words wisely.

i hear or have the wrong shit said to me and its some all-out-war shit..next day im like "fuck i was out of line.."

my best friends kinda know how i am and they dont let it get to them but the others hold grudges over it
 
Defy

Defy

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Gas One said:
yeah, let my ex tell it and thats why we broke up, because i said hateful shit.

kinda sucks because ive tried my best to get her back and she just is sorta over it due to shit ive said...so ive done alot of trying to own up to the fact that im making alot of good situations turn worse by not choosing my words wisely.

i hear or have the wrong shit said to me and its some all-out-war shit..next day im like "fuck i was out of line.."

my best friends kinda know how i am and they dont let it get to them but the others hold grudges over it
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yeah, I have friends like that too. my one potna will just be hella fucking heated over some small shit, then starts thinking of everything else thats ever happened and makes the situation out of hand. since we all know how he is we sorta let it go, but its just too difficult in a relationship. you can only tell a person so many times to stop doing shit before you have to take appropriate actions to protect yourself (be it physically or emotionally)

do you have a problem with apologizing and fessing up to your wrongs?

my bm is like that, where she'll realize she was wrong but won't apologize or admit to shit, but will just be completely fine the next day or hella nice or something. at first that was ok, but then I started realizing the problems were still there and we were just ignoring them.

on the other hand I have friends that think that apologizing is a bitch move, like if they're wrong they can admit to being wrong, but don't apologize for what you did because you gotta man up and just take responisbility.
 
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my bm is like that, where she'll realize she was wrong but won't apologize or admit to shit, but will just be completely fine the next day or hella nice or something. at first that was ok, but then I started realizing the problems were still there and we were just ignoring them.

on the other hand I have friends that think that apologizing is a bitch move, like if they're wrong they can admit to being wrong, but don't apologize for what you did because you gotta man up and just take responisbility.
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nah, i can totally own up to my wrongs, admit that its a problem, or apologize when needed cuz thats how i am...just really honest about myself and shit

its like i actually know its a problem so im not doing it to appear "hard" or like i gotta put up a front..

along with not having my emotions in check at times i wear my heart on my sleeve...so even if i get really mad it might be because im passionate about the subject. you know?

when i was younger though i wouldnt apologize for shit though, just like that...it was like fuck you get moving i dont care if you dont like what i said

whats worse is girls like it, man...but i view it as something thats a legitimate problem...and they think im a 'bad boy' or some shit..most girls knew how i was and it attracted them, at first....then it becomes a problem

last time i apologized to a homeboy he shooed it off like "you aint gotta apologize man, youre right"

shit made me feel bad actually
 
Defy

Defy

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^yeah....foos are products of their environment. I was hella trusting of everyone till I had "friends" take advantage of me. that taught me to not trust anyone, but then it would come back to me cuz I can't just think everyone was out to get me. when I was hella young I was sensitive to everything, then basically put up an emotional wall, but now I've found that balance. I don't cry about shit (well not normally) but I know when I'm sad or angry and how to deal with it.

its all about growing up.
 
Gas One

Gas One

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Defy said:
but now I've found that balance. I don't cry about shit (well not normally) but I know when I'm sad or angry and how to deal with it.

its all about growing up.
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well im opposite...as i got older my balance went one sided....21-26 was my years of 'balance', so to speak.

when i raised my dog from a 3 mo [puppy (first dog, at 24), and got into a serious relationship where i didnt want to cheat finally i sort of found out what love was....

i go through phases growing up. i cried watching oprah's "african child slaves' episode yesterday.

and then i laughed at myself for crying about it, but realized its just a reaction to me feeling really serious about something.


to be honest i actually like having some sort of emotion now. im just learning how to navigate it kinda. its a new thing thats why im saying its something i gotta better myself at..

spent my whole live not loving..
 
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Gas One said:
word. step it up.and dont pull out cuz aint no fun in that. just use "the farce" (refer to spaceballs) and that notch wont get preggo.



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I try to but its hard, i really like to watch it shoot all over um, its like a suprize everytime and im very competetive i like to constantly try and break my distance record
 
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