slide want me to post it, thats enuff for me.....
me// & my ~inner voice~ battle shit out in this, just peep it
i've got one thing on my mind, & that's a girl named Alyssa//
you know the type you want to miss ya, when your not in the picture//
you know the type, with those eyes that when your broke seem ta fix ya//
you know the type, so out of your league that you could never be a mixture//
but it's like, one night, out of the blue//
between us both a bond just grew, & it seems she's fond of you//
a somber few minutes together, & life could never bring me down//
but that pond of blue so crystal clear, becomes my grave as i drown//
because the same night stuff clicked & i changed my entire mood//
she met a dude, so its back to being really pissy & really rude//
so its back to alchohol & other drugs to ease the pain//
but the more meth i put in me i only increase the pain//
but fuck it, one more rail, blunt & drink..deplete the brain//
~tyler, get your shit together dawg & please be sane~
~its just another girl, life goes on, just be strong~
~theres other fish in the sea, youll see, it won't be long~
~you may have your ups & downs, & yes your a sinner, true~
~but one day some dame will come along & see the inner you~
but now i really want to kill me, thats the truth//
the way i'm living isn't healthy, cause disputes//
look in the mirror now i'm filthy, lost my youth//
but for all of this i'm guilty, to long mute//
i put my heart out on the table, asked her to date me//
but the ensuing wound was fatal, she answered with "maybe"//
now i'm constantly unstable, even the small things phaze me//
bite down on the barrel and cry as i go crazy//
~come on tyler, put the gun down son~
~suicide may be a solution, but far from a sound one~
~just look how far you've come from being the town scum~
~did you forget the other hurts? this aint even round one~
~you've had other heart breaks before, so many~
~kristi, ashley, mert & the unfogetable jenny~
~you've made it before so there's proof that you can stand~
~any punk can pull a trigger, but can you be the better man~
but constant depression & rejection has taken its toll//
~because you let it, don't you see, only you can save your soul~
~just think of the family & friends still so close to you~
but i need her & i blew it, so an overdose'll do//
~but you were meant for better things, one of a chosen few~
but it hurts so fucking bad, what am i supposed to do//
i see two options here, & one is to die cursed//
the second, snort this rail and try to kill you first//
~you know what then, fuck you man, i'm done trying~
~your beyond my help now, oh yeah, have fun dieing~
i aint feelin like this still, but this was just some old emotions coming out of my fingertips as i typed, lemme know what u think. ~late
