i wrote up a long response to mental illness on the old board and got into detail of how i suffered a mental breakdown and was later diagnosed parinoid schitzophrenic.my mom has been ill with the same thing ever since i was a child and it was really bad till they finally developed sum medication that actually worked.
i got back from my doctors visit yesterday which i have regularly about every 5 to six weeks.i got a new doctor and she's hella cool she's filipino and knows one of my uncles.anyway she gave me more medicine to add to the one i was taking for about 2 years now.
i take risperdal you can look it up it's an anti psychotic.i take it everynight before i go to sleep.now it does'nt help with anxiety or depression but it keeps the voices away.i used to take 2 milligrams which is low.my mom takes 3.well my doctor uped it to 3 because sumtimes i think people are whispering or talking to themselves.
i also have a shake in my hands when i get nervouse or i start shivering like i'm cold.she then perscribe this drug called cogentine.it makes the viens in my hands tingle and they get warm.the shake is gone as far as i can notice since i took it yesterday.
she then gave me paxil for anxiety and depression.i have a problem being around crowds of people and i don't like going out or meeting strangers at all.i can feel out of place i just don't feel normal.
she's working on getting me back in school.
she recomended that i watch that movie a beutifull mind.i know about it but never seen it myself.it's a true story of a man suffering from schizophrenia having voices in his head and hallucinating and he goes on to win the nobel prize.
basicly she wants me to see it cause even though he's mentally ill he acheived a great thing winning the nobel prize.she says for me to not give up and to chase my dreams.
i think i lack hope and motivation because i've been sick.it's hard for me to put together a plan and execute it.thats one of my problems being mentally ill.
i also lack energy but theres this new drug that kills the voices and gives you energy it's called geodone.i have to make an appointment for a blood test and ekg to see my heart rate and if it functions normally before i start taking it.i'm excited about taking that medication cause it's done wonders for people.
for now i have paxil but i'm about to take it right now after i type this.it's my first time.i'll tell you if i feel anything.
it's hard going through sumthing like this i'm 22 and i've had a hard time getting back into the mix like school or work.even though my doctors are telling me i should be on social security which i'm fighting for right now.
it gets lonely when nobody understands whut i'm going through.if you can imagine yourself in my shoes you would understand.no one thinks it's serious but it really is.it's a nightmare hearing voices and thinking everybody is against you.then when you get a lil better everybody thinks your alright and you should be just like everybody else.it's not like that at all.
whut really sucks is nobody really grasps the idea of whut your talking about when you say your schizophrenic.from my expierence they don't believe you.or they don't know whut that is.
so if anybody has questions about whut it's like to suffer from that then you can ask me.you can see how bad i've suffered from it and even whut lead to that happening.
like i said i never saw that movie a beutifull mind but i know from my own expierences.
to those that know and showed me support i thank you.theres very few who grasps the idea of whut this is all about.
much luv.
i got back from my doctors visit yesterday which i have regularly about every 5 to six weeks.i got a new doctor and she's hella cool she's filipino and knows one of my uncles.anyway she gave me more medicine to add to the one i was taking for about 2 years now.
i take risperdal you can look it up it's an anti psychotic.i take it everynight before i go to sleep.now it does'nt help with anxiety or depression but it keeps the voices away.i used to take 2 milligrams which is low.my mom takes 3.well my doctor uped it to 3 because sumtimes i think people are whispering or talking to themselves.
i also have a shake in my hands when i get nervouse or i start shivering like i'm cold.she then perscribe this drug called cogentine.it makes the viens in my hands tingle and they get warm.the shake is gone as far as i can notice since i took it yesterday.
she then gave me paxil for anxiety and depression.i have a problem being around crowds of people and i don't like going out or meeting strangers at all.i can feel out of place i just don't feel normal.
she's working on getting me back in school.
she recomended that i watch that movie a beutifull mind.i know about it but never seen it myself.it's a true story of a man suffering from schizophrenia having voices in his head and hallucinating and he goes on to win the nobel prize.
basicly she wants me to see it cause even though he's mentally ill he acheived a great thing winning the nobel prize.she says for me to not give up and to chase my dreams.
i think i lack hope and motivation because i've been sick.it's hard for me to put together a plan and execute it.thats one of my problems being mentally ill.
i also lack energy but theres this new drug that kills the voices and gives you energy it's called geodone.i have to make an appointment for a blood test and ekg to see my heart rate and if it functions normally before i start taking it.i'm excited about taking that medication cause it's done wonders for people.
for now i have paxil but i'm about to take it right now after i type this.it's my first time.i'll tell you if i feel anything.
it's hard going through sumthing like this i'm 22 and i've had a hard time getting back into the mix like school or work.even though my doctors are telling me i should be on social security which i'm fighting for right now.
it gets lonely when nobody understands whut i'm going through.if you can imagine yourself in my shoes you would understand.no one thinks it's serious but it really is.it's a nightmare hearing voices and thinking everybody is against you.then when you get a lil better everybody thinks your alright and you should be just like everybody else.it's not like that at all.
whut really sucks is nobody really grasps the idea of whut your talking about when you say your schizophrenic.from my expierence they don't believe you.or they don't know whut that is.
so if anybody has questions about whut it's like to suffer from that then you can ask me.you can see how bad i've suffered from it and even whut lead to that happening.
like i said i never saw that movie a beutifull mind but i know from my own expierences.
to those that know and showed me support i thank you.theres very few who grasps the idea of whut this is all about.
much luv.
